A story never heard nor wrote. My life is that myth. Everything
was perfect, my life was amazing. It was complete, and after losing my parents
when I was 2 years old, I only had my brother who was mentally not well. I wasn’t
a rich girl, I was living a poor hard life but I had love surrounding me. I had
everything I wanted, I was happy and soon me and my fiancé were going to get married.
Both of us belonged to the same class and were living a life of hardwork but we
loved each other and that makes every other thing small. I loved him crazily, I
was mad after him. So was he. I was living a life of fairytales.
Well, he always made me feel like a princess of our small little world. We had so many plans for our wedding as well as we were constructing our own house by ourselves too. My fiancé was a fisherman, he was moving out of the city. I had to go meet him one last time until he comes back. That night I ran to the sea coast just to meet him and say him goodbye.
Well, he always made me feel like a princess of our small little world. We had so many plans for our wedding as well as we were constructing our own house by ourselves too. My fiancé was a fisherman, he was moving out of the city. I had to go meet him one last time until he comes back. That night I ran to the sea coast just to meet him and say him goodbye.
That night was supposed to be great till his return. But the
tables turned down, and that night became the worst, the night that changed my
life, my soul, my people and showed me the real world. I lost myself, I lost all I had, all I loved and all I
trusted.
Life, that has been written with such hardships and sufferings. My soul and my existence has been scattered into pieces. My goals, my aims, my path got lost. Difficulties following me on every step I took. I can't live my life again. This is a tragedy that I just cannot face. I am not strong enough to see their faces. This is a life of a victim who has been abused and left as a murdered living. What was my fault? I cry and cry and cry, nothing is left. It's just me alone who has to face it.
He left me here, because my life had this story for me? I
wasn’t aware of the future, I have been broken into a gazillion pieces. Everyone
left me, because now I am a sign of disgust for them? They promised to stay
with me. They promised to be there whenever I needed them. And now when I need
them the most they blame me for all this. They question me for my character. They went and never came back. They hate like they dont know me or never did. I am amazed how they just turned their faces like i meant nothing to them. How can someone be so mean and inhuman?
Its all my fault, why do I exist? Why did I ever trust them.
Why did I love them so much. And why do i still care for them, miss them and still expect a bit from them. Why? Just why is this supposed to happen. I cried and
shouted and screamed and begged for help but nothing can happen now. Nothing. Why
do I have to face all this?

But i just need to escape from all this. I want to run somewhere far from all these problems and all these people. Every day every night i have nightmares. All i see is the same night again and again. And everytime i wake up with a scream escaping my mouth. Everything has been changed alot, all i know now is how to cry. I don't know how to stand up again. Its similar to as if i have been thrown in an ocean where i don't know how to swim.
I am just alive with the thought of maybe god has a better plan for me. MAYBE?
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